I have spent the last two years courting a relationship that I was being lead to believe would take me to the next level in my pusuit to be a model. As of yesterday I found out that most if not all I was told was nothing but an elaborate hoax. When I sat elaborate I mean to an extreme that I dont believe Hollywood would even dream of. I am now trying deal with the fact that I let myself be played like that for as long as I did. Trust me when I say that I did do my homework. I researched info that was given to me to confirm it. Even used local contacts that I had made to check on the validity of certians things as well. It wasnt until the last 12 days that things began to fall about for this person and I was able to finally see things that I had been suspect of for sometime. My only true mistake was I believed in myself and my qualifactions to actually make it as a model.
The good news in all of this is that I never gave ANY money to this individual. What I am left with now though is the emptiness of a dream shattered. Dealing with my inner demons that tell me I was only kidding myself to begin with. Trying to find the strength to dig deeper and use more determination than ever to suceed. I have learned a thing or two from this experience and that is a good thing as well.
I know none of you really care to read my life's dramas as you have your own to worry about. Needed to vent and for the few of you you have read this, Thank you for giving this middle aged wanna be the time. To all of my watchers I thank you as well and as soon as I get my head on straight again I will add to my gallery.
As Always All My Love,
~J~